You're frickin' kiddin', right?!

My word I can't believe what my project manager just said to me.

We'd said last night that we'd meet at 630 for breakfast and be at the office by 7.

I woke up at 630, got to the breakfast room a little after 645, and I skipped breakfast so we could leave right away and we got to the office around 705 or 710, and you know what he just said to me?

"Alex, when we set a time, could you try to be more punctual?"

What the frick do you want, damn it?! It's SEVEN FRICKIN' A.M.!!! The Conoco supervisor isn't even IN YET!!!!

Asshole. Way to motivate your troops. Asshole.

Day 3

Head about to explode.

11p.m. the night before I was to board a 7a.m. flight, my glasses decided to break a leg. Couldn't have come at a worse time. Thank God that mom found a spare pair stashed away somewhere I couldn't find.

Long trip on Monday, and I have to do all the driving since I'm the only driver registered for the rental car. Been workin' like crazy the past couple days.

I'm so weak... in every aspect of the person...

Oklahoma, Round 2

Back to Ponca City tomorrow...

I hope nothing goes wrong... like I said before... bad things happen when I'm away...

7a.m. flight too... I'm gonna die...

Sigh...

Does anyone actually miss me when I'm gone...?

Like, really miss me...?

Christmas Plans

Planning to visit New York City and surrounding area over Christmas.

Cities we could see:

• NYC (duh)
• Washington, D.C.
• Boston
• Atlantic City
• Philadelphia

Things to do in NYC:

• See a Rangers game
• Broadway (The Phantom of the Opera!)
• Climb the Statue of Liberty
• Watch the ball drop at Times Square
• Climb the Empire State Building
• Cross the Brooklyn Bridge
• See the Grand Central station
• Picnic in Central Park
• Christmas Tree at the Rockefeller Plaza
• Visit the WTC Site

That's all I can think of at the moment... will update as we go...

#10

Based on today's performance...

I don't think I deserve #10...

But then again I was feeling weak and dehydrated...

Worst Night Ever

Oh God that was so completely totally awful.

Had a headache last night so went to bed early, with my stomach still feeling stuffed from lunch, and you could've expected the restless sleep with nightmares and the 4a.m. wake-up.

Have a soccer game this afternoon and I have no energy whatsoever right now.

Team Building

Awesome day of whitewater rafting out near Sundre on the Red Deer River. Loads of fun, got so totally soaking wet and cold, but seriously so much fun.

Went to Smuggler's Inn with the group after, huge 20-ounce piece of rib-eye that I couldn't finish, a side of mushrooms that I couldn't finish, a glass of Woodbridge Cabernet Sauvignon that I couldn't quite finish, and an espresso.

Time for bed now... long day.

不要...

Honestly, sometimes I don't know what I want in a girl...

But... looking around me... perhaps I'm starting to understand what I don't want...

令人想哭的漫畫

... 我們的足球場...

一部我覺得很成功的漫畫.

很少看漫畫會感動得想哭的.

看龍珠, 看足球小將, 都沒有哭.

看我們的足球場, 看得渾身戰抖.

諾諾回家了

昨晚是廖啓智陳敏兒的見證分享佈道會.

熒幕上播著很感人的片段, 天真活潑的廖文諾, 很懂事, 很老成的一個小孩, 帶給身邊的人很多的歡樂.

縱使他的生命很短暫.

我沒有哭. 這不代表我無動於衷. 我只是沒有眼淚.

爭啲...

... 就世界波...

隊友一記左路傳中, 落點離門大概十五到二十碼, 我走位接應, 但個波迴旋落在我身後. 好辛苦先從 Kelly 看管下爭取到少許空間, 我再控定就會失去射門機會. 於是順勢前傾, 側身用左腳外檔由身後淩空窩利射球. 自己連個波喺邊都見唔到, 不過食得好應, 然後瞓咗喺地先見到個波從天而降, 撞中柱角, 彈出...

就爭半尺...

愛是懷疑

有點懷疑, 其實, 是不是, 愛誰, 不重要, 只在乎, 全心去愛?

當然, 她必需是基督徒.

但是, 還有什麽, 是必需的?

释放

现在的感觉, 舒服多了.

对将来有盼望, 感觉原来可以这么好.

依然憧憬美丽的邂逅, 依然向往浪漫的约会, 依然期待深情的爱慕, 依然渴望激烈的热恋.

Summer Conference

Just got back from the conference today. It was a nice getaway. The speakers were quite inspirational. Their lives truly exemplify the concept of "an instrument for God".

Don't really know what else to say. Got so tanned this weekend. Nights were boring cuz nobody went. Had to handle powerpoint duties out of the blue.

But I still enjoyed it.

(Gosh, why am I talking like a fob all of a sudden?)

解脫

上一篇的 blog 是有必要的.

不是因爲我依然抑鬱依然低落.

正因爲我需要從泥沼中爬出來.

別擔心, 我會復原的.

復原的第一步已經踏出了.

別再原地轉圈了.

往事不堪回首

也許我還是放不下.

也許我不放下的話, 永遠都走不出這死胡同.

和她一起的兩年, 是我人生最快樂的日子.

分手之後的兩年, 是我人生最痛苦的日子.

兩年之後又兩年, 再過兩年, 會是怎麽樣的境況?

日子兩年兩年的過去, 剩下的是什麽? 不過是一陣陣的唏噓, 内疚, 羞愧.

一切不再有任何意義, 任何價值.

時間會沖淡一切, 直到回憶中只剩下朦朧的身影.

往日的愚昧, 成爲今天的教訓.

把自己從昨天釋放出來, 畢竟時光不能倒流.

到如今都不明白, 但這個解釋已經不再重要.

她的喜怒哀樂, 已與我無關. 令她快樂, 不再是我的責任. 那兩年裏, 我已經盡了力.

讓一切長眠, 讓時間磨滅一切, 直到剩下的只有看不見的痕跡, 也許是唯一的辦法.

受夠了.